I want to be the best.

It’s a thought that’s been on my mind for a couple months and it’s just true. I want to be the best.

My dad was a medical technologist before he retired. I’m not sure what that really means but I do know that he was responsible for drawing blood samples at the hospital. As a kid, I remember people talking about how good he was. He was the best. When nobody could find the vein, my dad could. When no one was up for the challenge, my dad got it done.

I remember him pulling me into his room and telling me the same story over and over.

“Jurell, you know what my co-workers tell me at the lab?”

“…no, what?”

“They say: ‘Jun, you could draw blood from a rock!’ …you know why I can do that Jurell?”

“… no, why?”

“Because I’m the best.”

Maybe back then I thought it was cocky but now I just think of his unwavering confidence and his desire for me to be the best. It’s only now, as a 28 year old, that I understand what he was trying to teach me. So this January, I can’t help but get caught up in the spirit of a new year.

There are so many things I want to change, so many flaws, so many destructive habits, so many tendencies that push me 20 steps backward from being the best.

Now, I’m not exactly sure what being the best means yet but I am positive and sure that I want to be it. I think that my “best self” is always evolving and yet to be revealed. At the same time, I believe it is in the very act of seeking it that I will discover it …maybe.

So, cheers to the seeking.



A very respected and successful mentor (founder of E5Leader.com) swears on this practice and I’ve been wanting to try it for awhile. Why? Because at any given moment I get swept up in my own daily life and forget the direction that I am shooting for. I’ve also heard that reviewing your goals and to do list regularly is one of the most important factors in moving forward in your goals. So–to be blunt… I think that this practice will be the one to take me far.

For too long I’ve convinced myself that “I forgot” was a legitimate excuse–but it’s not legitimate at all. It’s just the mediocre one. And I will not be locked into the mediocre box.


My “snoozing” has gotten out of hand and it’s time to do something about it. At my worst, I literally will set four to five alarms and snooze them all for an hour. It’s a terrible way to start my morning not to mention disrespectful to my wife when she is off work.

I made a deal with my wife to hold myself accountable to this. If I snooze I’ve promised to cook her a Pintrest recipe of her choice.

God help me.



If you know me then you know that I can put food away. I used to pride myself on it but lately it just been exhausting. My love for food has stolen hours and days away from me. It’s made me sick to my stomach. I’ve had too many days of being a slave to food. That might sound dramatic but I’m done with not having control over my cravings.

I look back to when I was on a serious diet and workout plan and I was limiting my food. It wasn’t until I was limiting my intake that I realized how much I really loved food. I guess it’s the old cliche that you don’t know what you have until it’s gone.

Food becomes more flavorful and the experience more artful and appreciated.

Another random thought: Do I consume the food? or does my food consume me? Laugh all you want but these are the things I think about.


Part of me is ashamed to admit it but I’m  addicted to my cell phone.

Okay? There. I said it.

There’s so much stimulus from it and I keep it close to my side, checking facebook, then Instagram, then Twitter, the email, then my other email. it’s just… too much.

I know how much good can be accomplished through social media but I’ve also experienced the strong grip it has on my life sometimes.

There are a lot of ways I need to improve but the place I have chosen to start is my bed. I bought an $8 alarm clock for the time and I keep my cell phone just outside the bedroom. That way if someone needs to get ahold of me I can still hear it and answer and it forces me to get up out of bed in the morning to turn off the alarm. It’s perfect for my “no snooze” goal.

If you are interested in the inspiration for these goals see the articles and videos below. If not–skip to the next goal.

Simon Sinek on Millennials: I actually have a lot of beef with Sinek’s arguments but that’s for a different blog. I completed my Master’s thesis on the Millennial generation and some of the stuff he says is really good… and some of it makes my blood boil. Anyways. The good stuff is GOOD. He inspired me to get an alarm clock and helped me realized the addiction I discussed above.

8 Things You Should Do Every Morning By Benjamin P. Hardy: This article changed my life about 6 months ago. Stop checking email right out of bed. It’s just a terrible way to live.


This is an old goal that always comes in waves. I’ve decided to make my goal so easy that it’s laughable in hopes that it will get me started and consistently get exercise everyday. My 10 minutes will consist of running, lifting, p90x videos, and insanity videos. Time to reclaim my health and my body.


My friends have been inviting me to a Monday evening work session where they meet up and crank out work but I’ve yet to go. They are crazy organized and on top of things (everything I am not) so I just think this will be a good move for me. It highlights my desire to be prepared and organized and some social time to continue building friendships. I’m pretty excited for this one.


My friend Craig is the master of new year’s resolutions. I hate him for it… but he’s incredible at it. After two years of completely failing at my new year’s resolutions I’ve learned that I am not Craig Sidol. I’ve learned that I’m terrible at committing to things for one year. It’s just too long of a period for me.

I’m not eliminating that practice completely–maybe I can get there eventually–but right now I know that I can work with 30 days at a time and then revise.

Plus, if I execute the goal for 30 days and I discover that it isn’t life giving then I can drop it. So the plan is to review my goals every 30 days without feeling bad about dropping or picking practices as I need them.

So there… see you in 30 days.



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